Obsessive Compulsive Disorder :: Porn And Sex Obessions

Jan 27, 2016

I'm 20 years old female. I remember when I was 11 years old I was absolutely scared of sleeping on my own because I thought I would get possessed or a I would see a ghost. I would get paranoid when it was getting late because I knew I would have to sleep on my own even though my brothers bed was right next to mine I was still scared and I would beg my brother to sleep with me. I would constantly be scarred and I just could sleep on my own for about 2 or 3 years where my obsession just ended. This obsession was triggered when watching a scary movie I never knew it was OCD I'm still not sure if that's the case?

But after that I was scared of growing taller I don't know why I just didn't wanna be tall I would measure myself everyday and write letters to God and begged him that I wouldn't grow taller. This obsession lasted about a year or two.

When I was 17 I had a spot on my forehead i became depressed for some reason I would look at people's faces n compare them to mine I would google celebrities that have spots to make myself feel better I wouldn't let anyone touch my face for about a year or two even after the spot was gone.

A couple of months later for some reason I don't know if it was stress or I didn't have enough vitamins in me I started loosing hair it wasn't really bad but I got obsessed about my hair I wouldn't constantly check my hair thickness, I kept pulling them out to see how much hair has fallen out I would literally count them, I would ask my friends if this was normal or if they ever had a hair loss. Then my friends hair started falling out due to stress and I felt better I stopped obsessing about my hair they completely stopped falling out. I would still check and check and google I even started saving money up to get a hair transplant. Then my friends hair went back to normal and I started obsessing again constantly checking if my hair wa stalking out constantly pulling them out crying and just going crazy. I then had an obsession about my looks I kept comparing my hair my face to celebrities and if I saw a girl that's prettier than me I would get depressed I even hit myself for not being as pretty, j started doing exercises for my face I promised myself I would get a surgery done when I save up. I started wearing a lot of make up and would never show my face without it. I even had dreams where I felt weird because I had no make up on in public. At that time j had a boyfriend I was really obsessed about guys n the only reason I wanted to be pretty was because I wanted guys to like me and want me. I never figured out that I had OCD I have always had anxiety because j would I get really stress out when talking to strangers or even people in my class. Anyway one day I get really high smoking weed and I had a weird thought that popped into my head which was ( why am I here ) i started obsessing about my existence I was scared that I have lose my memory I would I wake up every single damn day feeling the same way with the same thoughts in my head, I kept questioning if I'm really alive or dead or if I'm in a comma and this is just a dream or my imagination. I was scared that I have lost my identity I just felt awful I had depression I just didn't wanna be alive anymore I kept obsessing n obsessing I kept asking for reassurance j kept googling always on my phone looking for answers I thought I was crazy every time I Heard people saying crazy or mental I would spike and get anxiety attacks I would get the every single morning for the past few months. I was obsessing about my hair and me being crazy at the same time I just didn't feel the same at all I couldn't feel emotions towards my family. The only emotions j could feel was towards my boyfriend I loved him with all of my heart he was my everything. After 6/7 months or maybe 8 I was doing really well I kept fearing that I was loosing my memory but I wasn't too bothered I just thought it's the thoughts that are making me feel crazy so I just ignored them as I was rok tired to fight them and analyse them. While I was going through that obsession I was at home all the time I couldn't think straight and some one mention it would be a good idea if I took my kind of it while watching porn so I did. I was sexually active at a young age. anyway I started off with straight porn then I moved onto different types of porn weird n disgusting but after I got bored of normal porn j would move on to weird things. My sex drive was really high for some reason I was constantly thinking about sex I would have sex with my boyfriend about 4/5 times a day but not everyday. I then started watching lesbian porn I don't know why I just did straight porn didn't work on my anymore I watched that and some other disgusting thing that I'm too smashed me to talk about. I was watching porn up to 5 times a day sometimes, and every night before I went to sleep. I kind of got over my obsession but then my brain was looking for something else to obsess about, when I was going through my obsession I slept with another guy I just didn't know how to cope with my brain I though if I do it maybe my obsession will just vanish and so I could take my mind of it. It worked after I realised what I have done i felt horrible I went back to my boyfriend and j couldn't stop obsessing about the fact what I have done it just wouldn't leave my mind it was there 24/7 I would Keep checking my facebook before my boyfriend woke up. Just incase that guy msged me I kind of got over it because I thought my boyfriend wasn't even there for me while I was having such a horrible time. But then my brain kept looking for something else to obsess about then I started obsessing about the fact that I have slept with more than 19 guys n I never told my boyfriend I just kept obsessing and even though I didn't wanna thing about it it was always in my head it was so annoying I was literally going crazy couldn't sleep after a few weeks I pushed the thiughts aside and j literally forgot how many people I slept with. I was still watching a lot of porn at the time, but I felt like my sex drive wasn't as strong as it was before? I then started imagining things in my head while having sex with my boyfriend they were sort if disturbing but they made me climax.... I had fantasies that I was having sex with his friend instead of my boyfriend. I would have the same fantasy before going to sleep and had dreams about that person, I still loved my boyfriend more than any nothing. But I didn't know what was going on with my sex drive.

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Obsessive Compulsive Disorder :: Never Be Happy And Carefree Again?

Does anyone else worry they'll never be happy and carefree again? I look at other people who live normal lives (at least what it looks like) and are happy, and I'm so envious. I know everyone has their problems, but it seems like having to deal with these thoughts ALL THE TIME this is on another level. It's like you're trapped in your own mind. I am so scared I'll never be free of this.

I just want to be happy and excited about life, and I'm so far from that. I dread having to deal with this forever. All I can think is, I have a long road of hardship ahead of me for the rest of my life, and this is how life is. No one should live like that.

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder :: Fear Of Having Schizophrenia

*I might see a movie with people sitting in a car or a restaurant and I feel like I might be sitting there with them (I know I'm not) but I can imagine the amount of lighting in the room or objects.

*I read a person said he felt he was slipping further out of reality, and then I got a image in my mind of my brain or head going backwards or doubling out of reality. It keeps popping up and bothering me and Im scared that every second of the day I'm slowly slipping out of sanity or getting further out of reality.

*I feel like my thinking is a cube (it's really weird). I don't know how to describe it but I was feeling really anxious and all of a sudden I got this weird sensation as if my mind was a cube (stuck, anxious, scared) I have a sensation that there is a box in my head and my mind is stuck in it, is this anxiety?

I was diagnosed with OCD but I am scared its something else because my OCD and anxiety cause really weird thoughts. Please help I don't know how much longer I can go..

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder :: HIV Anxiety / Phobia

I don't know if I am alone in this fear but for quite some years, I have been transfixed on the idea that I have HIV. There are good periods but then there are times when it utterly consumes me.

I have had unprotected encounters (or should I say encounter) some years ago and that is what triggered my anxiety over the disease. During this time, I have had two full STDs tests including HIV and they both have come back negative and each were when I was out of the window period.

I guess my question is, is there a chance that I could still have HIV? Perhaps the tests were done wrong both times and I got a false-negative test back each time. Do I need to go and have another test just to confirm that I do not have the disease?

Hypnosis Works For Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)?

My nephew has been diagnosed with OCD, which started about a year ago and has got steadily worse. He has to count to a certain number before taking clothes off and can sometimes put them back on to make sure he counted correctly, clothes have to be laid out just so, so dressing takes forever, he also gets stuck in rooms not able to move, it's quite frightening. His psychiatrist has put him on a pill and therapy, of which he has only had one session in 3 weeks, and his mother is paying for it!

Surely this can't be right, what other treatments are out there, would hypnosis be any good, it's very distressing. He is 17.

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Anxiety :: Obsessive Breathing? Sensorimotor OCD

So I've had problems with anxiety for years but the past months I've had problems with my breathing. Basically I became so obsessed over it that I started feeling like I have to take every breathe myself (manually).

I can just about deal with all of my other anxiety symptoms except this one. It makes me feel like there's something else wrong and I'm going to die.

I mentioned it to my doctor and he said he's never heard anything like it before. I also mentioned sensorimotor OCD and he didn't really care, he said he'd look into a therapist for me. That was 8 or so weeks ago and I've still not heard, I've rang up countless times and am no further forward.

So my question is, does anyone else with anxiety have this? Does anyone suffer with sensorimotor OCD that has tips for me?

Adderall - Masturbation + Porn But No Errection

I took Adderall regularly from 2011-2013 and had no ED issues, but delayed ejaculation. Since then, I've switched to a different anti-depressant medication, and when I restarted the Adderall, I had ED.

I would watch porn and masturbate for up to 30 minutes before I could get an erection. When I did, I would have some pre-ejaculate (which I never had before). Once I got an erection, because it took so much work, I didn't want to lose it! So I would put on a c*** ring and edge for up to an hour before ejaculating. Even if I only took the Adderall a few days a week, these side effects and the subsequent cycle continued daily. I've stopped the Adderall, but I still have to masturbate a flaccid penis for up to 15 minutes before it gets erect, and like before, there's eventually pre-ejeculate, I get very hard, then can masturbate normally and eventually ejaculate.

I feel like the aggressive type of masturbation I used to produce an erection when I was taking the Adderall has completely altered my penis' reaction to stimulation. Now, 15 minutes of stimulation + porn produces pre-ejaculate and then an erection. Stimulation from a partner does nothing to arouse me. I now have to go through this process to get an erection.

I've never had ED issues before, or any trouble getting an erection when masturbating or with a partner. Now, after all the aggressive masturbation caused by the Adderall-ED issues, my penis' response is so drastically different, I'm worried and don't know what to do?

Will an ED med get me back on track? Do I have to avoid masturbation and porn for an extended period of time and then my arousal cycle will return to normal? I feel like I've literally retrained my penis on how to respond to stimulation, and I need to retrain it back to normal, but not sure what to do.

Has anyone else experienced this or have suggestions?

Masturbation With Porn Causes Erectile Dysfunction?

Hi everyone, I am 26 years male and having erectile problems for last 5-6 years.I havn't sought any treatment and avoided facing the reality till now.I had been masturbating to porn for around 12-14 years and in process trained myself to ejaculating within few minutes of physical stimulation. My abdomen gets upset when I am aroused, I feel like shiting when I am aroused and I guess this is related to my GI problems. It had come to the level that I ejaculate on physical stimulation without even fully erect. A few days back I tried to have sex with a real partner after 3 years and same thing happened I ejaculated within few minutes on hand stimulation with 60% erection. This was real embarrassing. Anyway I was not even aroused to the level I get aroused when I watch porn. Nowadays it is also believed that masturbating with porn causes erectile dysfunction. In background of this thing I have had quite stressful life for last ten years. I could not feel any stress, fatigue or exhaustion even when the symptoms were quite prominent and would think that there was nothing wrong with me. I came to know about exhaustion a few months back. I was over training my mental and sexual health. Now I am exhausted both sexually and mentally so I took a break for a few months. Now I want to heal myself. I feel attracted towards curvy females but I don't think it is sexually. Please help me guys how should I go about this problem. I can't keep it like that because I know I will masturbate to porn even if the problem is not solved.

Women :: 14 - Watching Porn And Masturbating? Is It Bad?

I am a 14 year old girl and i masturbate and watch porn sometimes. i get really scared sometimes as if like what if i get caught? AND is it bad that i do all of these things but sometimes i just get really wet because i've read or seen something and its like i have to do it. and sometimes i like to watch girl on girl action does that make me a lesbian because i am totally straight and do not like girls in that way. it just fascinates me a bit so is that bad?

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Cannabis Addiction :: Marijuana With Porn

Substance abusing and drug addicted. marijuana at the moment but adderall and Percocet in the past. Alcohol when I have no marijuana. Marijuana controls my life and I am high 24/7. Developed a porn addiction as a result of my marijuana addiction. I drive high everyday and can't function without my weed. I suffer from diagnosed depression, anxiety and undisguised bipolar disorder. I just broke up with my girlfriend because she was smothering me by trying to get me to get help but she was the best thing that ever happened to me. I don't care because I need my weed.

Masturbation And Porn Will Put My Health In A Danger?

Is masturbating and watching porn make my health in danger? i also didn't do these thing because religion matter .

Erectile Dysfunction :: Masturbation And Watching Porn

i m fairly fit ...24 age..i use to masterbate alot watching porn..like 7 or 8 times...even now still i can masterbate this much times..but with my gf i cant get hard without stimulation..i had sex with her but sometimes i was not even able to maintain erection..and when i maintained i was in hurry as i was scared of losing the erection..i lasted mainly for 7 or 8 minutes...if i am alone i have strong desire to have sex so i watch porn get hard and masterbate..i can do it all day..i do get morning erections..no problem..and till now i used to live under so much stress...so may b masterbation and stress have something to do with my erectile disfunction..i really love my gf and she loves me too..she is very cooperative plz suggest me what should i do..and i can say that i m not stressed now..or maybe don't know that i am stressed.

Premature Ejaculation - Porn Addict And Masturbation Since Teenage

20 years old. I am still a virgin and unfortunately I have been a porn addicted my entire teenage year and masturbating for many times. I am beginning to have a relationship but I am afraid that I am suffering from PE. So many times that I get aroused when watching porn my fluids keeps coming out then I can't help it when I feel the urges to masturbate . It takes only a full minute or so after being completely aroused. I am terrified of this problem and I hope I don't have it. I am currently cutting back on all porn sites. But How can I be 100% sure that I suffer from PE and If I am, How can I treat this problem? please guide me and I hope.

One thing to mention is that when long time passes without porn or masturbation I can feel my urges stronger and I erectile easily so is this an indication that I don't have PE or that It will take small time just to recover from this issue because I fear that I will ejaculate soon after entering my girlfriend. Or It will be normal to ejaculate easily the first few times only then I will adjust to the feeling?

Erectile Dysfunction :: Rarely Get An Erection When I Watch Porn

Hey guys, im 23 years old, and i realized that i dont have the morning woods anymore, or rarely get an erection, when i watch porn, its like not turning me on, but i can get an erection when i masturbate, but i lose it in 20 seconds if i stop, since 10 days now...i work out, lift heavy weights, run all the time, trying to eat what i should, but im so worried now, this is the first time happening, what should i do ?

Penis :: Impotence Caused By Excessive Masturbation And Porn

im 23 years Old ,,, i have been masturbating from last 8 years ... but from last 3 years i masturbated daily once or more times but not more than 4 times,.... most of the times i masturbated while watching porn.... ,,,,

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Porn Induced Masturbation And Erectile Dysfunction? Failure In Real Life

I started out watching porn and masturbating when I was 10 or 11 years old. I didn't have a girlfriend until I was 15. The first time we tried to have sex I couldn't get an erection sufficient enough for penetration. The times after that we tried to have sex and I got a weak erection, but managed to penetrate her. I got pretty hard when I was inside but it quickly goes away when I'm not inside her. I realize what the porn and masturbation has done to me all these years so I'm unable to perform in real life situations. After reading many people in similar situations as me, I've decided to give up porn/masturbation forever to be able to perform in real situations with real girls. Summer is coming up when I will be able to go to my girlfriend's house in a little less than two months. I've installed porn blockers and stopped masturbating since about four or five days ago. I feel absolutely no urge to watch porn or masturabte. Do you think I will be healed? I hate living like this and want this to be over with. If you have any questions, just ask.

Orlistat :: With Eating Disorder

Basically, it seemed like it was at first then it just stopped, for ages (months) and it made me miserable because I was doing everything I could right, which was very difficult for me because I have an eating disorder. When I realised nothing was happening after all that hard work, combined with stress and misery (i have bpd and an anxiety disorder on top of the ed) I ended binging repeatedly. So in the end I just gained weight.

What do I do now? I've been trying so hard for the past year, exercise healthy eating instead of starving myself like i would usually resort to, and then orlistat. and then there was barely any difference in the end. I've now gained 10lbs from my start weight.

Is there any option after Orlistat, medication wise. I don't really want to contact my doctor until I know this as I'm embarrassed but I couldn't find any information online. I'm not heavy enough for a gastric band and I don't think that would necessarily even help me as it wasn't overeating that was the problem.

Is Hyperparathyroidism A Permanent Disorder?

I was originally diagnosed in 2010. I have recently been told I have a urinary infection, but apart from the fact that two lots of antibiotics don't seem to be working, all my symptoms relate to this, especially an irregular heartbeat and confusion.

Bowel Disorder :: It Hurts To Poo

Since tuesday I woke up and it hurt when I went to the toilet and I managed to go but I think its made it really really sore and I've felt like I really need to go since then but it just hurts too much everytime I try to push. Please don't say to eat fibre because that's not what the problem is, I think it was caused by stress, but now its so sore I don't know what to do it hasn't even felt better over two nights.

please help, should I still eat? I feel like I don't want to eat incase it just builds up, I don't know what to do I'm uncomfortable because I want to go but it hurts to much when I try.

Bowel Disorder :: Is It Normal To Have Hemorrhoids ?

I'm 19 years old and is it normal to have Hemorrhoids ? ? I noticed a lump at the anal verge like an year ago . So does everyone has it ?

Or does normally hemorrhoidal cannot be seen since they must first swell and become inflamed or develop a clot to cause problems ?

So at first i thought it was normal to have this lump since it didn't cause any problems . Therefore i didn't bother about it . Even now i don't have any problem with it. It doesn't pain or bleed . Although it does itch sometimes. But irritation goes away soon. I'm really worried about it.