Functioning Alcoholic And Then Came The Morning Drink
Some days I read this page and I think...wow...all these people are drinking and they are functioning! I can drink and function anymore. I become a statue on the couch with the beer not very far from me and at least 2 packs of cigs.
I used to be able to function when I was drinking when I was younger...but what I believe happened to ME...was I discovered the "morning" drink about 15 years ago.
About 15 years ago...after a family cookout...I felt soooo sick from drinking all day the day before....I was probably on line and learned about the "hair of the dog". And I drove back to my brother in laws house...and raided the beer that was left outside in the cooler.
I started drinking that day..and because I was younger...I felt so much better after the first drink...I kept going and I thought....I had the cure for a hangover!
I was working back then so only drank at night during the week and didn't have those horrible hangovers in the mornings...but on weekends...I started drinking in the a.m. if I had drank too much on a Friday night to cure the blurry vision, the awful taste in mouth, that dragging feeling.
This pattern led me to drinking continuously all weekend from morning to night...and that is when my alcoholism took a serious turn for the worst.
Alcoholic :: Anxiety Worsened Without Alcohol
I'm 34 years old and have been drinking socially since I was about 17. For about the last 6 years I have been drinking more heavily. An average week night 3 pints, but often 4 maybe 5. On a very good night just 2. At the weekends I would have 4-6 pints Friday, Saturday, Sunday, but its sometimes hits 9, that's without going on a night out. So, on average, about 30 pints. I also suffer with anxiety, and recently its been really bad. The anxiety is horrible, I feel panicked, overwhelmed and nervous about things that I should be happy about, I get strong feelings of guilt from things I've done in the past that, whilst it was wrong to do these things, it doesn't really matter to anyone. I feel like I cant lie in case I feel guilty after so I end up owning up to stupid things, such as spending a tenna in the betting shop. Its worse after drinking, so I drink more to help ease it, then feel like rubbish the next day so I drink again, then I'm in a vicious circle. I do enjoy a drink but most of the time I drink its unnecessary and to make myself feel better and calm down the anxiety. Its now got to the point where I've had enough of feeling like this so I have decided to cut down, and hopefully stop drinking altogether. I went 12 days a few weeks ago and was starting to feel better halfway through, but felt a bit flat and fed up. I went 5 days last week and the same thing happened. This week I have gone 3 days and so far I feel terrible, worse than ever, its not easing off like it usually does. The last two nights I've not slept, I keep twitching and jumping in the night. My hands feel like I have constant pins and needles and I feel dizzy. As well as the usual anxiety feelings. I'm going on holiday Saturday and I'm worried about being stuck on the plane for 2 hours, and I get anxious about being with my girlfriend who I love very much, for a few days, its ridiculous! She knows how I feel and is supportive, so is my mum, so I do have people to speak to. The doctor gave beta blockers yesterday but I don't like taking pills and worried it will make me feel worse. I know I'm not the only one who is like this and I know the booze is probably the reason why I'm like this, but how long is it going to last and what if its not the booze? Does anyone have any advice?
View 5 RepliesAlcohol Consumption :: Living With A Recovering Alcoholic
I have lived with my partner for the past 4 years and when I met him he liked a drink, but at the time, it seemed just sociably. As the relationship progressed, so did his drinking, if we were out socially he would end up so drunk and quite embarrassing on a number of occasions. The drinking stepped up a notch when we bought our own place and for the past 3 years it has become a problem within the home more times than I care to mention, going from barely being able to speak, not wanting to do anything unless there was alcohol involved in the activity, making promises and reneging on them, wetting the bed, starting arguments when there was nothing to argue about, the culmination of this behaviour has been that 2 weeks ago he moved into the spare bedroom where he drank a bottle of vodka every night on his own, only to pop downstairs to start an arguement with my sons or me. I told him I wanted out, house to go on the market and go our separate ways. With that he made an appointment to see his doctor, who in turn said if he continues drinking what he drinks, he will be lucky to live beyond another 4 years... he is only 40 years old. He has confessed to me since the visit to the doctors that he's always drunk more than he should and has struggled with alcohol for the past 20 odd years. He has moved to his parents to start his detox and has to go back to the doctors in two weeks to let him know progress there has been, also he's been to a meeting with Inclusion, previously Homer, it was just an initial chat, they have given him some material to look through. He will go through an assessment following on from the next doctors appointment, and will then be assigned a key worker who he can chat to and will support him. I suppose what I want to know is how I'm supposed to behave towards him, whilst I still have feelings for him, I'm not sure I want to sign up to be with him forever as I just can't believe he will never touch a drop again. He's emailing me saying he still loves me and wants to get married when he's sober, but what's the reality of that? Do I tell him the truth that I can't stay with him or do I give him time to start the road to recovery without any stress from me?
View 43 RepliesAlcohol :: 10 Bottles Of Wine A Week - Alcoholic?
I am a 48 year old man and on average i drink about 10 bottles of wine a week. i feel fine look fine & am very healthy, but in gov stats i'm an alcoholic.
Why is this, i work abroad a lot (Spain) where wine consumption is the norm.
I exercise 5hrs a week my weight in 11 to 11 1/2 stone. If i drink white or rose wine i make them spritzers 3rd sparkling water, 3rd wine & a 3rd ice, if i drink red then i drink a glass of still water with each glass. I also drink good beer maybe 20 to 30 bottles instead of wine for 3 days a week & drink the same amount of water with each bottle, i never have a hangover, feel sluggish. i don't eat junk food drink tea or coffee or popfizz drinks i only eat freash foods no packets or takeaways i make my own. So tell me is my lifestyle wrong?
Hyperthyroidism :: Tremor And Muscle Weakness
I was diagnosed as hyperthyroid about five months ago. I am so much better now however the tremor in my hands and the muscle weakness in my arms and thighs doesn't seem to have subsided (or even lessened) at all like the rest of the symptoms. I am really worried that these are going to be permanent problems. Has anyone else had tremors and muscle weakness from this condition, and did it eventually go away or should I be preparing for this to be a lifetime issue? If yours did go away, how long did it take and did you need to take any particular supplements or do any particular exercises to help?
View 9 RepliesEssential Tremor :: Inderal Not Working - Primidone?
I'm 19 Years old and I have Essential Tremor.
So, I've been taking Inderal for the last 3 months and it's not working on my tremors. Have you had any experience with Primidone and, if so, can you tell me if it worked on you?
Essential Tremor And Anxiety - Inderal / Alprazolam?
I'm 19 years old and I have ET and anxiety because of that.
I went to my second appointment with my neurologist and I told him about my tremors and my anxiety. And that the dose I was taking (10mg Inderal 3 times a day) was not working. I was feeling no side effects or improvements on my tremors and anxiety. So this time he raised the dose to 20mg 3 times a day and he said that If 60 mg per day doesn't improve my tremors It's not worth to give me a higher dose. So, I told him If he could give me some medicine to take in anxious situations. He gave me Alprazolam 0.25 mg to take only in anxious situations in a maximum of one per week, because taking it in long term can affect my mental ability.
So, let me ask you some questions:
If 60 mg of Inderal per day doesn't improve my tremors, it means that's not worth taking a higher dose?
There is something alternative to improve my tremors If Inderal can't?
There is any anti-anxiety medicine that's not too strong that could calm down my anxiety and I could take it long term? (I only need to take it in 6 months or less depending on how I'm adapting, because I'm going to work for the first time outside my country for 6 months and I will feel very anxious because of my tremors.)
Since my doctor prescribed me Alprazolam 0.25 mg in stressful situations to calm down my anxiety, can I take a higher dose, like 0.50 mg If I feel that 0.25 mg doesn't get me more relaxed?
Movement Disorders :: Benign Familial Essential Tremor
wanting to contact others who have the same condition. Sometimes it is genetically related or not.
View 4 RepliesThyroid :: Normal TSH But High Free T4 - Palpitation, Tremor, Intolerance To Heat
i am malaysian recently did my blood test and found out that my TSH within the normal range (1.8) but my free T4 was 26.33 (12-22). free T3 was not done. i am experiencing all the symptoms related to the hyperthyroidism such as palpitation, tremor, intolerance to heat, weight loss(from 78kg to 65kg), always hungry, muscle weakness.i went and visit my endo, he said since the TSH reading normal, so you are not having hyper and he discharged me. but i can realise that i am having all the symptoms of hyper. can anyone help me?what i should do after this?
View 2 RepliesQuitting Cannabis - Scared To Be An Alcoholic Afterwards
I have been smoking cannabis since i was 14 and am now nearly 19. even though i have not smoked for as many years as others here i can relate to a lot of the points they are making. Cannabis is a great drug when you first start smoking it but in later years i have found myself on edge whenever i haven't had a spliff. However i find after 3 days of going without a spliff it gets much easier.
Since starting university this year i have met a lot of people that do not smoke cannabis and never would, this has opened my mind in a huge way as before i came here i was in a group of friends where everyone smoked it. These days i do feel that cannabis detaches me from the world and it doesn't help in social situations at all. finding a girlfriend is becoming increasing difficult as i spend few hours of my life not stoned. The problem is i do need some escapism from this reality and i can't find it at the bottom of a bottle. For some people drinking is great but i would choose weed any day over alcohol. Friends of mine that have given up cannabis have become full blown alcoholics, i don't think i could face going down that route. Cannabis use does concern me a lot and i think i am on the way to giving it up altogether. Besides the effects are so insignificant these days compared to what it use to be when i was 14. Its always hard though when you know your friend downstairs has just picked up a fresh eighth. I am making a committed effort to give it up altogether as my chemistry course is too difficult for me to go on smoking daily. Lets just hope my tobacco consumption doesn't double as a result.
Alcoholism :: Dealing With An Alcoholic Boyfriend
My boyfriend and I have been dating for a few months now, and we are both 18. When we first started dating i knew he had a drinking problem before because he went to rehab. When we first started dating everything was great he didn't drink for the first two months of our relationship. When he did start drinking we drank casually, i thought everything is okay because he would only drink with me. But then he started drinking with old friends that he would drink heavily with. I thought everything would be okay but then he started freaking out on his parents and his anger was out of control. I told him that i don't think i could deal with any of this right now and he said he would stop drinking. which only lasted about a week. he was never mean to me, but he did threaten me saying if i was to break up with him he would kill himself. he just recently went to rehab and said he isn't coming back but he still wants to be together. i love him and care about him alot but not being able to see him kills me and i don't know how to deal with it. when i told him one night that i cant do it, the whole not seeing him thing he got very emotional. This is my first real serious relationship and i just need some advice on what to do. I don't have anyone to talk to because no one understands how i feel.
View 3 RepliesAlcoholic :: Drunk - How To Prevent Future Memory Loss
So a couple nights ago I drank and can't remember part of the night. The funny thing is usually when I get drunk a trip n fall and that type of stuff and remember it fine. I wasn't drunk enough to be doing that but the whole night is hazy. And I guess I tried to have a conversation with a buddy's mom and I don't remember it. The bad thing is there are thoughts and feelings I have that I hope I didn't tell her about and I'm afraid I did. I'm to chicken to ask. I kept on telling them I wasn't drunk. I also remember thinking this is my last beer and I'm done but I'm pretty sure I drank more after that. All the people that I was drinking with say I was very drunk. And I just can't remember. I know my drink wasn't spiked or anything. But I'm also told my husband wanted me to go to bed and I didn't want to don't remember that either. I did start drinking on an empty stomach. But then I ate after about 2 beers.
My question how to prevent future memory loss cause sometimes it happens sometimes it does. And why. And does anyone think I would have said embarrassing things to the buddy's mom
Ps I'm not an alchohalic And I'm of legal drinking age and a responsible adult 90 percent of the time
High Cholesterol, Triglycerides And Non-alcoholic Fatty Liver
I had high ALT, high cholesterol, Triglycerides and Non-alcoholic fatty liver for last 1 year (as i know). I was trying to control these for last 6 Months.
I had my liver function blood test results back today as follows:
Serum Albumin: 43 g/L
Serum Alkaline Phosphatase : 77 iu/L
Serum ALT level 34 iu/L (it went upto 110 last year same time and slowly decreasing since then, in December 2014 it was 65 iu/L i am glad that it is back to this level )
Serum Bilirubin level 9 umol/L
Serum Lipids
Serum Cholesterol 5.3 mmol/L (In December 2014 it was 5.8)
Serum Triglycerides 1.95 mmol/L (In December 2014 it was 3.96)
HDL Cholesterol level 1 mmol/L
LDL cholesterol levels 3.4 mmol/L
Total cholesterol:HDL ratio = 5.3
It is clear that i have improved my ALT and Triglycerides with diet control and sports/exercise. However, still my cholestrol is high and recent Ultrasound scan suggested NAFLD, i.e fatty liver.
I would appreciate expert's suggestions regarding my cholesterol and reducing NAFLD. I am worried as i did not have these issues just about 1 year ago. I am playing sports 2-3 times a week, controlling my diet (no cheese/butter etc), what else i can do to lower my cholesterol and Fatty Liver.
Benign Essential Tremor Causing Muscle Twitches Involuntary Jumps And Cramp In Hands And Fingers?
Does anyone that suffers from Benign Essential Tremor suffer from muscle twitching involuntary jumps and cramp in hands and fingers?
View 8 RepliesGallbladder :: HIDA - 7% Functioning - Needs To Be Taken Out?
I had a HIDA scan today and my gallbladder is functioning at 7%. does that mean i need to have it taken out?
View 1 RepliesGallbladder :: Low Functioning HIDA - 28%
Brief history-Ive had left sided pains for years and acid. Drs suspected pancreas as lipase always a tad elevated but scans normal. Had a hida over a year ago- was slow at 28% but not extreme.
Now I have very soft BM every day, sometimes D-rarely a normal BM. Is this typical of a slow GB (without stones)? Also, I have pretty bad acid issues on and off.
Kidney Isn't Functioning Properly
So a year ago i developed excruciating right flank pain,which would leave me in tears and vomiting.
went to see gp and after many tests discovered the tube coming from right kidney to bladder was damaged. isotope test showed left kidney at 60% and right kidney at 34%. had an op in november.isotope test repeated last week.results show surgery successful ,left kidney still 60% but right now 30%. there is no explanation as to why and now im waiting to see what my gp wants to do next. obviously i've googled this and so any advice going forward if im just going to be monitored what should i be doing to help myself?
im female 36yrs old,no other medical conditions.well within my bmi etc.
i dont want to lose any more function of my kidney. thanks
Gallbladder :: Non-functioning And A Lot Of Symptoms
I am a 29 year old male and about two years ago I started getting this burning pain in my upper right abdomen. I figured it was nothing and just ignored it. Around that same period I had an episode one night (on a day where I started trying a detox eating only carrots and cellery....yes kinda strange I know) where I felt like I was having a heart attack and ended up going to the emergency room. It ended up being "nothing" and I just changed my diet and I didn't experience that pain much afterwards.
Recently, the pain returned along with other symptoms so I went to the doctor to get it checked. Long story short the results came back showing non-functioning gallbladder but no gallstones. The doctor said my gallbladder may be inflamed and it might be having spasms. I have another appointment to get my stomach checked for anything else, I want to be absolutely sure before I make a decision to get my gallbladder removed.
Here is a complete list of the symptoms I experience after eating:
1) pain in upper right abdominal after eating fatty foods
2) tightness in chest and stronger/uncomfortable heartbeat after eating carbs+fat
3) sensitivity to carbs and feeling like my blood sugars get really high fast (get light headed very easily) even though my blood sugar test seem fine
4) sometimes feeling like there is a rock in my stomach after eating that last for 4 to 5 hours
I would like to ask a few questions, hope it isn't to much:
1) Would I benefit from a liver+gallbladder detox given that my scan showed no stones? I heard the stones can exist inside the liver?
2) Can someone with gallbladder issues feel like they're have blood sugar issues when in reality their blood sugars are fine? and does this go away with surgery?
3) what are the odd that all my problems go away if I remove my gallbladder?
4) any other suggestions for someone in my circumstances?
MRI Scan Show Up A Non Functioning Gallbladder?
I have been having pain in my upper right abdomen for about 4 months. It can be extremely painful contraction like spasms, lasting from 2 hrs to 10 hrs.
I have had blood tests that have shown liver function issues. I have had an ultrasound that showed a contracted non functioning gall bladder.
I have recently had an MRI scan that was normal according to my GP, I was given this as the consultant felt I may have a blocked duct that was causing the liver function abnormalities?? I am still waiting to see the consultant regarding the scan results.
Daily I have sharp twinges just under my ribs on the right side which lets me know something is still going on.
Can a gallbladder start to function again? Would an MRI scan show up a non functioning gall bladder?
I am confused and surprised that the mri results have not backed u the other results. I cant get to see the consultant for another 3 weeks!