Depression :: Lot Of Self Harm Thoughts
i have a lot of self harm thoughts and i wish they would go away. i tried to kill myself before 3 times. i got help and it's been gone for a while and it's come back and i want it gone.
Depression :: I Have Suicidal Thoughts
At least i can admit that. Im suicidal. I have suicidal thoughts. I cut myself but not so i bleed just so it hurts. I've been suicidal since i was younger but not its worse. I isolate myself a lot. I'm never truly happy. I feel useless, unloved, hated ect. I'm sad a lot but pretend like nothing is wrong so i dont have to hear 5 or more speeches 20 minutes -1 hour long from my family to be treated the same way again in 3 weeks. Or be asked what's wrong only to lie. I don't have any true friends and no one will listen without giving me useless advice. So im pretty much here to ask if there's any online therapist sites that anyone can direct me to. I don't want my family to know. They found out once and it was like living in hell. They thought i was crazy, "helped", lied to me, treated me like i was mentally ill. It wasn't fun and i can't tell them the real reason i want to do it so that was fun. So if anyone can help me. Please don't say tell your mom because she can't and won't help, talk to the counselor at your school because all she did was made me cry for two hours straight, don't do it because i've heard that from friends, teachers, family and on here way too many times anything like that. I have trust issues so that's why I'm asking for online... It's easier for me.
View 11 RepliesDepression :: Confusing Negative Thoughts
Today's been one of the best days in terms of how ive been feeling for a while....but then the negative thoughts started to come back again.like no matter what I do i always end up being worst off (even if it's not 100% true or all the time) im trying not to have these thoughts as this is what started the depression initially in the first place,and I have a reakky good life for the most part,apart from alot of stress or alot of things going on.been taking one 5-htp for the past three nights to try and get to sleep,and had to take a proposal this morning to calm myself down.still have about another month before I see someone to sort all these confusing thoughts out.
View 3 RepliesAnxiety And Depression - Negative Thoughts
I have and still do suffer from anxiety and depression. And recently have been having negative thoughts, things I shouldn't. I feel like such a terrible person because I know that's not me I couldn't hurt a fly. And I feel like i'm all alone, i'm ashamed of my own self, its worst when i'm alone it's like I get lost in my own mind and I hate it. I'm on medicine for my anxiety, and have a doctors appt coming up. Is this occurring because of my anxiety/depression? Am I the only one?
View 2 RepliesSevere Depression/anxiety - Suicidal Thoughts
I am new to this site and have been having alot of issues as of late. About a year ago I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. Even with medication I was having a hard time with life and due to this was let go from my job. I lost my medication when I lost my insurance. I began to spiral and crashed hard about a month ago. When I get depressed I become self destructive. I started drinking heavily, self harm mutilation, and had an affair with a stripper in which I received oral sex. When I sobered up a bit the guilt got to me so much I had to be hospitalized for suicidal thoughts. I am on new medication (buspar, wellbutrin xl, and remeron) but still have an issue with guilt and anxiety about the affair and possible std I may have gotten. I can't stay out of my head and still have many suicidal thoughts. I broke down and let my wife know what happened, for her part she is mad but willing to work it out. Any advice would help. Also do any of my meds cause horrible stomach cramps?
View 1 RepliesDepression :: Lonely And Continuous Negative Thoughts
Both of my children (19 and 21) left home last Sunday and went to live in the USA. I've been a single parent for 10 years so now I am on my own after 22 years and I feel so desperately lost and worthless like there's no point in me being here anymore, my job is done. I work for myself at home so I don't even go out apart from taking my dog for a walk. I suffer from chronic back pain caused by a sporting injury many years ago for which I take Morphine and on its own I can normally cope with but coupled with this desperately lonely feeling I don't know if I can make it through another day. I've searched the internet for professional help for my situation, but there doesn't seem to be anything available. Should I go and see my GP (who barely knows me) or does anybody have any suggestions? I just feel like a total failure and don't know who to turn to
View 6 RepliesSevere Depression And Anxiety - Irrational Thoughts Are Destroying Me
I'll just tell you a little about myself i'm female, 23 and unemployed. Took me a while to first go to the doctors, First diagnosed with depression n anxiety at around 18. Was very low in mood, constant worrying, staying indoors not wanting to go out or do anything. Through childhood and school, college n work always had difficulty in talking about my problems, issue's bottled things up never hardly spoke about how I was feeling and fitting in, socialising, relationships, exams etc was extremely hard found myself mixing with the wrong crowd a lot. Employed Since leaving school2008 till 2014. 2014 everything went downhill my behaviour was manic, erratic, obsessive and violent highs n lows lost my job, wrote off my brand new car under the influence, lots of debt, family troubles, getting into trouble with police, stealing much more things really could go on n on. Currently and the last two years have been horrendous withdrawn myself from the world stayed in bed days, weeks, months got sectioned diagnosed with severe depression, anxiety n psychosis disgusting place if anyone can relate...In there i was on lorazepam felt amazing was discharged but they couldn't prescribe me that at home so i went back down. irrational thoughts are destroying me. I've tried most types of AD meds most of them have had no effect or made me like a zombie. Been back to see my gp last week and started again on Sertraline 50mg increased to 100mg following week and she has give me beta blockers propranolol 40mg twice daily.
View 13 RepliesDepression :: Suicidal Negative Thoughts Flowing Through My Head
I am on a serious suicide path. I can't think straight. all I have are negative thoughts flowing through my head. I sitting here with a knife about to cut myself because there's no other way I can relive the pain. I don't know what I need right now. I need help I know that. I need a friend. I don't have friends. I have not a single person in my life that understands me in any way possible. I just want someone to listen and not criticize me. Or judge me. I am so tired of being judged. My head hurts so bad right now... everything hurts. There isn't anyone I can talk to...no one cares. Just someone please please help me before I do something dangerous to myself that can't be fixed. I don't want to hear a single "I'm sorry_______" because I know your not.
View 4 RepliesGabapentin :: Depression / Suicidal Thoughts - Side Effects?
My doctor wants me to take Gabapentin for some disc fragments giving me pain in my back. I'm worried because the side effects say that the side effects are depression or suicidal thoughts. Has anyone ever had these type of side effects or problems in general with this drug? Did it help them with their back pain!
View 11 RepliesAnxiety :: Social Phobia, Depression And Suicidal / Negative Thoughts
Sometimes I think I'm going crazy. I'm not being able to even hold a job right now. This makes my self esteem goes downhill and I can't get up of my bed because I fear people.
i'm a mid 30s woman and I'm not sure what made me become so sick. I have a string of failed relationships and in one of them I suffered domestic abuse. I started dating my current boyfriend as soon as my other relationship ended and had too many problems with him but we are still together. He is an ex addict and I'm always afraid he turns back to drinking and doing drugs.
sometimes I think I'm getting insane. I have panic attacks all the time, I can't process my feelings. I tried group meditation but I became too scared of people in general I just gave up. I'm locked home for a whole month now.
im truly thinking about ending my life. I don't see a point. My whole being is taken with these bad sensations, feelings, lack of hope, lack of control, my thoughts flow uncontrollable like a river and I just can't process anything. I'm getting old and I am a huge burden to everybody.
I don't wanna die. I wanted to know if anyone went through these hard times like me and was able to live again.
Depression :: Can't Stop Crying
I know I've posted quite a lot recently but, everything is just so hard at the moment. The only thought that calms me is the thought that I could end it all. Every problem would wash away and it can't be any worse than the misery that is life. I'm sorry to keep posting and going on. I really hope you are all doing well.
Depression :: Brain Can't Stop Thinking
I am really depressed that my head is all over the place and my brain can't stop thinking,I've just lost my job for gross misconduct for a stupid mistake,the beginning of the year I lost my partner,left with four children to look after,my work took my mind a little from thinking about it,then a few months down watched my mom battle cancer,got suspended while work investigated,lost mum and now my job,so many mitigating circumstances to why i lost my job,it was out of character but employer just ignored it,don't even want to open my eyes in the morning,can't remember the last time I smiled,life don't mean much to me,keep bursting into tears so many times out of the blue,can't remember the last time i had a good night sleep without my brain working none stop or if it not thinking I'm having these nightmares,I've had enough
View 40 RepliesDepression :: If I Stop Taking Nortriptyline After 4 Days Will I Get Withdrawal?
I've been taking nortriptyline 25 mg a night for 4 days. Will I get withdrawal if I stop now?
View 1 RepliesBreasts Wont Stop Growing, How Can I Stop Them?
My breasts won't stop growing, how can i stop them, at the end of last year i was a 10DD/E (32DD-32DDD/F american sizing ) i'm now bulging out of a 10i (32J american )i can't go up a back size as a 10 is already loose..
View 1 RepliesHow To Come Off The Diazepam?
I have been on diazepam 8 - 10 mg per day for over 10 years. I have been told that I have sleep apnea and I have to gradually stop the diazepam as it could have caused sleep apnea or be contributing to it. I am also on 40 mg per day of citalopram. I have a long history with social anxiety.
I work in a school and am supposed to be going back tomorrow but I just do not feel as though I could cope without my medication. I told my boss and have not received any support at all!
Is there anyone out there that knows how hard this will be to come off the Diazepam? Is there anyone that has been on it for as long as I have?
Will It Be Hard To Come Off Diazepam - 2mg Five Day Course
Just started taking this yesterday got 15 2mg tablets only for anxiety and nerve pain caused by neck arthritis, concerned it will be hard to come off them even after this short time.
View 3 RepliesDiazepam - Coming Off
After suffering 2 prolapsed discs I was prescribed maximum daily dosage of tramadol and pregabalin plus 30 mg amitriptyline 30mg diazepam and 15mg zopiclone, I'm surprised I could walk but I thought I was just fine! It was only when my son gave me a few home truths telling me I looked stoned, 100 years old and like a zombie (harsh but true!!) did I realise what a mess I was. Normally I am a bubbly person but all I wanted to do was lay and watch telly, so I decided to ct everything apart from the diazepam! Ouch!! After the first week, of physical symptoms of which the restless leg was the worst, came the awful depression. I have had 4 weeks off work because the anxiety has been bad and that's with me still taking the diazepam. Anyway I have dropped from 40 mg diazepam to 20 mg in 2 weeks. Way too fast I know but I just want off. I am slowing down now with the taper as I'm started to get scared as the last ct was hell on earth. However I don't want to follow the Ashton manual and still be on this in another 6 months.
View 4 RepliesAnxiety :: Diazepam
Anyone else taking this? I find it helps so much but am afraid of becoming dependent on it, I try to take as little as possible but as I am going through AD withdrawal my anxiety is very high at the moment, anyone else take it daily?
View 10 RepliesDiazepam Is A Nightmare
does anyone else find that family and/or friends get fed up and walk away when you keep telling them how Ill you feel or are? People really don't know what they're getting themselves into with what seems an innocent looking magic pill. Then it reality hits you. It can take decades for the penny to drop! Yes! it's the pills. I don't know of one doctor or psychiatrist that understands.
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